My feelings don't always show on the outside. From an early age, I masked my otherness, from autism, without knowing it. This means that on the outside you often cannot see how things are on the inside. It looks colourful, like this umbrella behind which I hide, but how is it really going behind the mask? The colours drip off the umbrella, except on me, they are not my real colours. They were not visible for a long time, depicted by the grey shoes.
Autism involves a lot of anxiety about being able to be yourself, because it is often so different from the group. Sometimes it can be useful to put on a mask, but if you do this so intensely it comes at the expense of yourself. This drawing I made in Procreate reminds me of what it costs to put myself away, so I do that less and less. I choose my own colours now, and show them more and more often!
Glittering rain drops on a tulip, or the heather in the light of the evening sun. My lens captures the subtle magic of nature – from the smallest details to vast landscapes. Each image is an invitation to pause, breathe and see the world with new eyes. A.. Read more…